..what did I do today..?

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, Most Merciful...

Everyday, our routine would be the same. Typically for CSMU students, nothing would be less common than attending lectures, classes, enlightening the buses for hospital subjects, and eventually returning home, with dishes-of-the-day thoughts lingering in mind.

Come to think about it, have we did by any modus operandi anything for our beloved religion?

Muslimahs may say that attending weekly usrahs and ceramahs are already sufficient. For muslims, they may believe that praying jama'ah at the mosque every time Maghrib settles in is already a big marvel. All in all, it relies most on how sincere our heart could be.

Sincerity? Talking about sincereness..

"..those who feel forced to change lose, but those who force themselves to change win.."

translated :

"..orang yang berubah kerana terpaksa adalah mangsa, tetapi orang yang memaksa dirinya berubah adalah orang yang berjaya.." - Ustaz Hasrizal

Recalling the good old days, I remember those days of Form 1 at high school when everyone was forced to assemble at the musolla every Jumaat for the weekly talks and gatherings that we would have with the BDK prefects ( BDK = Badan Dakwah dan Kerohanian).

Normally everything would be smooth sailing, till some harsh voices chip in. Of course, what else if not..rebels from the rebellious.

Senior : siape yang rase x ikhlas duduk kat musolla ni..rase buang mase je, lebih baik tengok tv kat bilik tv, sile keluar.

A few students would rise up, and head for the door.

Senior : berani ye adik-adik nie.

Junior : akak yang kate..kalau x ikhlas jangan datang kan. kalau saye x ikhlas buat ape turun. bukannye saye concentrate pun ape akak cakap.

Senior : Ya Allah..kecik-kecik dah macam nie..(shakes her head)



The junior exited the musolla, leaving us with puzzled minds, eyes glued on the floor, for no one dare peak a glance at the seniors.

What happened may seem simple, nevertheless little do we realize the boons and banes disguising. The junior had an opportunity to better herself, but she just couldn't care less to do it, let alone realize it.

The daily jottings of life, everyday, we would face situations that require immediate decisions, some that deal with our future. To do, or not to do. To go for, or just leave. To buy or not to buy.
TO CHANGE, OR STAY THE WAY I AM.

At some times, we may feel forced to do something beyond our will.

A: Jom pegi surau

B : Xmo. Ko pegila. Kalo x ikhlas buat ape.

But until when should we wait for our hearts to be sincere? To open up for a change? And moreover, can we really justify how sincere it is? Only Allah can..

At moments when changes seem difficult, it's these simple initial steps that would implicitly open up our hearts to change into a new leaf. It also signifies the crucial need of solat istikharah to plot our next steps, the steps that trail along the lane that leads to mardhatillah..

Berubahlah sedikit demi sedikit, lama-lama kite akan 'terubah' sendiri (tapi berubah ke arah perkara mahmudah ye, bukan mazmumah..hehe).

For Allah knows better than us..